monicamayhem

So i was bored and decided to make a "club/house" type of remix of one of my songs.
Check it out!
And please let me know what you think!
Thanks!

http://www.YouTube.com/MonicaMazur

so were we. check out this show me and my friends made. its pretty much what we do every friday.

www.youtube.com/freshhaul

Sub us =]

Hey Guys! It's been a while since i've updated.
Just wanted to let everybody know that i started a t-shirt line (which also has some hats and stuff too)
and i want everyone to check it out. tell me what you think.
www.zazzle.com/VonFresh

and also while you're at it, check out my boringass show with my friends. =]
www.youtube.com/user/freshhaul

Wow, it sure has been a while since i've been on here.
So i guess let me recap.
i still work at target (joy)
i still dont go to school (yet)
me and erica are still broken up (sorta)
you see here's the thing, we're kinda like friends with benefits, but more than that.
cause we both still have feelings.
so we're kinda dating. but nothing official?
i dont know how i feel about this.

So on Christmas Day Nick and I went to the movies and saw Twilight.
I have to admit, i thought it was going to be terrible.
i'm not really into those Harry Potter/Lord Of The Rings book trilogy movies.
but i decided to give it a shot, and i was like at the edge of my seat.
the plot was good, loved loved loved the ending!
it just leaves you in suspense.
it was just a really good movie.
so for anyone who hasnt seen it yet, go fuckin see it.

Well it's new years so good fuckin bye 2008! I hate you.

www.myspace.com/monicamazur

I'm still heartbroken and now its pissing me off.
i want to get over it.
i think she's already over it.
i hate being miserable.
i surround myself with friends all the time, but i still cant get it out of my mind.
i hate breakups.
this one took me by suprise and fucked me up.
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www.myspace.com/monicamazur
new song clip.
www.youtube.com/user/freshhaul
www.youtube.com/user/monicamazur

...my youtubes.

So i havent been on buzznet in quite a while.
umm lets see, me and my gf broke up, idk if i mentioned that before.
i guess im okay now.
i mean its pretty much been a week.
so ive been keeping myself busy with videos.
check some of em out on my youtube
http://www.youtube.com/user/FreshHaul
(and yes the two vids that are in my favorites is a part of that too)
i just didnt feel like reuploading them to a new account.
so check that out.
and whenever i feel like theres somethin i need to say
you can count on me when i say ill sign right back on

oh, and i have orientation tomorrow =]

yeah yeah yeah, its thursday today, havent been on here in a few days.
but um yeah, erica and i broke up on monday night.
it was horrible.
the past few days ive been back and fourth
like i feel fine, but then i feel miserable.
idk, i really dont want to think about it.
we said we'd be friends.
so yeah.

so after this break up i wrote a song called "Friends Not Enimies"
its on my music myspace
www.myspace.com/monicamazur

so i passed my second interview at target. i guess they just skipped the third one.
and i have to take a drug test within 24 hours.
so after i pass this drug test (and i obviously know im passing it)
theyre gonna call me and set up an orientation day.
target.
do i really wanna work at target?
its not like i have a choice.
i need a job
and i need to go to college.
i guess i'll take whatever i can get

Erica's grandparents were away for two days
of course me and nick were over =]
we hungout pretty much, ate alot of shit, and did nothing.
it feels like yesterday and today flew by.

As for Target, I passed my first interview
i have my second one on friday at 1:30pm
i guess, wish me luck.
i'm not really expecting anything because everytime i do
all these job companies let me down
such a waste.
so, i'm not putting my faith in these interviews.

I hate being home.
i have that feeling again.
as i was leaving erica's house i felt so panic-y.
now i'm home, online
it's 12:48am
and i'll probably do my usual routine of going on youtube and watching stuff
then going to bed at 2am

aye aye aye--being a bum sucks

I'm on Yahoo! Answers, looking up what goes on in an interview at target.
apparently they have have 3 interviews, you need to pass all three.
2 in the same day.
and then a third and a drug test on another day
then after all that shit, they tell you if you got the job or not.

what bullshit is that?
whatever happened to apply.interview.work.
i hope this isnt a croc of shit that's just gonna waste my time...

Today (or i should say yesterday) was my two year anniversary.
so this is what we did.
we met up in my complex and exchanged gifts =]
then we went to carrabbas..yum.
i had fuckin chickin marsala<3
that place has got to be the best italian restaurant--i swear.
after we ate i took erica to island16 and we saw "My best friend's girl"
we sat all the way in the back, shared a large coke and had candy.
it was cute cause they have those armrests that you can move so we cuddled throughout the whole movie.
when the moviwas over i took erica downport
we sat by the water and just talked.
walked around for a little
and then we just drove around for a bit.
to sum it all up it was really nice, and im glad we lasted this long.
many more aniversaries to come. =]

ad i keep burpin up chicken marsala so its all good haha

So today it has been exactly two years since me and my girlfriend started dating
its absolutely amazing
and i still have the same feelings for her as i did when we first started dating.
i can't believe its been two years already.
i mean that's a REALLY long time--for me anyway.
most of my old relationships were only 2 months long.
but two years.
who woulda known =]

so today i'm taking erica out for a traditional dinner and movie
and maybe walk on the beach downport
(cause i went there yesterday and it was really pretty)
hope everything goes well =]

attention whores on myspace who leave bulletins
either saying "comment me" or "nobody loves me"
or posting those "g/f ,b/f" applications even when they already have a bf or gf.
they just post them cause theyre "curious"
get the fuck over yourself.
jumpin from boyfriend to boyfriend aint enough?
you need to get the satisfaction out of other people to know you're wanted?
..AND have a boyfriend?
get the fuck outta here, yu're playin yourself.
no wonder everybody you date breaks up with you.
you're a dumb cunt that doesnt learn from their mistakes.
so how bout u learn something
and shut the fuck up before i go over there and show you what love is with my foot in your ass.

other than that, it's a wonderful morning!
breeze<3

so i found this website (crushchecker.com), and basically
you put in your email and get a link.
you send the link to your friends and it asks who they have crushes on and shit
and it sends the info back to your email.
when they're done it tells them "youve been tricked by the person that sent this to you"

so i send this link to erica (my girlfriend)
she told me she did it
and i checked my e-mail and it wasn't there.
i told her my password a WHILE ago, so idk.
do you guys think that she went on and deleted it?
like maybe she put some other peoples names and not mine?
and when she found out, she went to my email and deleted it?

or am i just stupid?

a new song posted on my music myspaceeee.
now that its done and i listen to it, like its sad haha
but i guess its supposed to be.

Click Here Bitches

Has a YouTube account?
ineresting.
and kinda weird, but its entertaining
if anyody has a chance take a look
the link is like... mileymandy? or something like that.

it pretty much entertained me all night hah

i walk into 7-11 today with nick and erica.
we walked srond, they wanted drinks, i got a donut and a stick of cheese.
dont mind me, i love cheese haha
i go up to the counter and ask for cigarettes, cause i figured, you know
im already here i might as well.
so the guy asks me for ID
i hand it to him.
he then asks whats my date of birth? and i tell him
and he's all "no, it doesnt look like you"
and he was giving me a hard time..like i have my credit cards and everything
but he kept asking for another picture ID--inwhich i dont have.
so nick goes and ris off my hood and the guy stares and is finally like
"oh i see"
and hands em over.

i've had that picture on my lisence since i got my permit 4 years ago.
i've been through so many different hair colors and styles, obviously its not gonna look exactly like me.
idk, it was just really frustrating

yestrday i drove to nicks house and hungout with his sister? lol
nick eventually cameand he was with kim and jackie.
he told me about his meeting at beauty school and im glad for him.
atleast he knows 100% what he wants to do

i went to the bank and when i came back jackie was gone
so it was just me nick and kim
nick was on the computer the whole time
and me and kim were talking about how fucking hungry were
well speaking for myself, i only eat once a day, and at this time it was like 6pm, so i was starving.
and kim kept going on the TGI Friday's website hahaha.
she was checkin out the menu and everything. haha
i waited until erica got off of work.
when she did she came to nicks house so now it was after 7--like 7:30ish.
my fatass is starving, got a headache, the whole kit and kabootle.
i drove everyone to friday's and i forgot to menton it was pouring rain--again.
couldnt see shit.
finally we got there, and we see all these people sitting down infront waiting to get seats.
so me nick kim and erica (all fucking STARVIN') are all like "fuck, we're gonna have to beat a bitch up to get a seat"
so we walk in and what happens.
we got a table as soon as we walked in.
and not just a table, a mother fuckin booth!
damn straight, you see big bitches comin, you move the fuck outta the way.

so we all got our appatizers and entree's.
we sat ate talked.
after all that food we left and everyone wanted to go to ralph's ices.
so now erica's driving, and she almost misses the place
and she fucking braked so quick and turned the wheel, that the car swirved over and shit
...in the pouring rain.
i kinda yelled at her, but like, that scared the shit out of me
i dont know why everyone was laughing at that.
it really isn't anything to laugh about.
but whatever, i got over it
we had some ices. i took like 5 bites out of mine and shit, i couldnt move.
i had such a bad headache that still never left, and now instead of being starving
i was full like a fucka.
i couldnt move
ugh, ew, i felt so fat its gross.

so after ices, we met up with chris and amanda.
but then erica had to go home cause she had work the next day at 6am
so my big ass
kim's big ass
and nick's big ass
all crammed in the back of chris's dirty, smelly car.
he has water bottles and papers all over the floor
and all that's been there since he got that car 2 years ago.
anyway, there had to be atleast 1400 pounds of people in that car.
i mean there was 5 of us.
and 4/5 of the people were, well, husky-ya know?
chris's car was so low to the ground
while he was drving his car was making weird ass noises
like cracks
and metal rubing and shit
i thought we were all gonna fuck his car up lol.
so we got to nick's house again (cause i left my car there)
talked for a bit
then jackie came.
chris and amanda left
then i left cause i was really tired

so i go home, it's like 11:30pm, that's not even serious.
and i try to go to bed--and surprise srprise, couldnt sleep
i just pretty much had the worst night of my life
 kept trying to fall asleep
nothing worked
i probably spt for an hour all put together.
its now 7am on the dot
and im wide awake

wonder whats in store for today